okay. last pic? it was shit! but this? right here! AHHHHH! :D

This right here made me FAR too happy, but i don’t care! eeeeek!

ronandhermionesource:

Disco Voldy knows how to party.

(via angels-and-absinthe)

i had been so excited about tomorrow because it wouldve been just us two, now he’s coming along as well… i know you have panic attacks and such, but i still don’t want him to come :/

I’m drifting from everyone… Right now, I’m close to one person and closer to two people that i used to hate compared to my supposedly “best friends”. I even cut, and i think it was partially because of them. They’re in their own little clique. the second they get together, nothing else matters. it’s stupid and i hate it. and the people in our group have left all the work to me and my closest friend. it’s stupid.

I just want to get to college and just cut all ties with them and make new friends, but im crap at making friends, i’m too shy in front of new people and i can never start a conversation. Maybe ill just turn into the loner, the only people i speak to are my parents and other family members sometimes and the one girl who i’ve let myself like. I want something to happen between us, but i dont really know what.

I can’t help but wonder what life would be like if i had never existed, or what would happen if i commited suicide: who would care if anyone, would anyone be happy? Would someone apart from my parents cry?

The cuts are slowly starting to fade. i made 4. my arm, my hand, my ankle, just above where my foot and leg join and on my thigh. I want to make more, make them deeper, make them actually bleed, but i’m too scared. what if they get infected? What if i lose too much blood? I may contemplate suicide, but I don’t want to actually do it. I think i need help.

spreoccupied:

• there are so many things wrong with my life now and to have a TV show validate one of my wants… as SAD as that sounds JUST MADE MY LIFE!
• it made me think off the first time I got kissed and that really meant a lot to me because I honestly thought that I would never be kissed by a guy.
• as…

 I squealed so much when this happened and almost started crying with happiness!

I’m so nervous. I’m meeting wth her again this saturday, and this time, it really is when we know we like eachother… last time we met up, i sabotaged myself a coupleof weeks before because I thought I liked someone else more and I told her… but i don’t like anyone else more… I don’t like anyone else at all, only her… what if she doesn’t feel the same way?

Oh fuck, a helium balloon….

shit. shit shit shit shit shit. i’ve wanted to do it for ages and did it, it was only thin, then a stretched it cos I wanted to see blood, then i did it again, longer as well, and then I stretched it again to see blood. I didn’t mean to. I mean, I always managed to stop myself before, but this time… fuck

I really want a tattoo. I mean, I have for a while, but i can never decide on what to get or anything, or even a quote to get! I love too many. Like, I’d love a tattoo on my wrist, specifically of like just a word or something like love or whatever, but I can’t choose! D: